my time management skills are level:max loljk i can’t do this fucking shit fucka askdjfhasjflksdjflhowielhsd
now this is what i like to see… if i’m gonna buy some fancy new Strong Product i wanna see it beat the weaker version of itself into total useless garbage…… its called innovation and i’ve never been so happy to be a capitalist…
yg is like that writer that keeps on killing off and torturing his favorite characters
i don’t even know what i want to write except i want to write something to get this shitty feeling out from inside and i can’t do it by crying because i can’t cry even though i tell myself it’s okay to.
it’s just small steps. but the wrong steps i think.
i sat on my glasses and bent the place the screw is supposed to be and of course, it fell out. the small step i took today was finding an optician place and asking them to fix my glasses, which they did and were very nice about it.
but i think it was the wrong step, or i should have taken more steps. honestly, when i get stressed i want to stop everything and just huddle in a corner but i can’t. and now i’m stressed. i was a piece of shit last week and didn’t manage my homework time well so i ended up getting very little sleep and falling asleep more in class than normal. this directly impacted two classes. one is chemistry. i had an exam tuesday, and up until monday afternoon, i thought it was a quiz and not a test and then on the day of the test i forgot to bring a calculator fucked up so bad. second is calc. that class is fucking hard for me and i haven’t been able to absorb all the information in class, resulting in me not knowing how to do written homework, and now the online homework.
and now i’m here less than 6 hours before calc homework is due, too much of a piece of shit to read the textbook and do it.
Sergei Rachmaninoff having a miserable time with some lady friends.
when i was at home i pretty much never cleaned my room until i was forced to by my mom but now that i have my own room (shared though but it’s like i’m given responsibility for this room) i hate seeing it dirty. maybe it’s because our house was cleaner because there was a clear boundary between shoes off area and shoes on area. (or maybe it’s because i’m more like my dad than i thought.)
3/4 tests done
i was so happy when done done and i fast walked back and dropped off backpack and fast walked to restaurant place to get rice and then came back and skipped a bit and happy happy happy